My 2nd Pregnancy Journey

Alhamdulillah.....kami percaya akan rezeki Allah....Dia telah janjikan sesuatu yang terbaik dalam hidup kita tanpa kita sedari...

Alhamdulillah di atas kurniaan rezeki yang tidak terhitung nilainya....kami diberi kesempatan sekali lagi untuk merasai pengalaman menjadi ibu dan bapa....syukur Ya Allah.....Insya Allah akan kami jaga amanah Mu ini dengan sebaiknya Ya Allah...

Kau peliharakan lah anak di dalam kandungan aku ni dengan baik, lahirkan dia dengan mudah, jadikan dia anak yang yang soleh, sihat dan sempurna hendaknya.

Insya Allah saya bakal bersalin pada bulan Julai, setahun selepas perginya Abang Zawawi.

Abah dan Mama can't wait to see you sayang...Semoga membesar dengan bahagia dan sihat di dalam tu yea sayang....

Much love to baby love.....

Syukran Ya Allah......

Macam Mimpi

I have been going thru the confinement period without our baby ;-( It is macam mimpi

Everybody has given a moral support.  I thank each and every one for your help, your support etc. May God rewards. Insha Allah

I'm still in recovery process (a bit susah because its ceaserean), but anyhow....I need to go thru all this.

Today, 4 September 2015 marked 61 days after delivery.

And, I need to start my work...

Oh God, You are the best planner and You know what is the best for Your hamba. Please give me the strength to face all this. Semoga Kau kurniakan rezeki zuriat yang soleh dan solehah buat kami selepas ini. Insha Allah..Amin Ya Rabb

My Delivery Journey

As its approching EDD, we have decided on 17 June sebab dah  buat decision nak bersalin kat HRPZ.

Tunggu punya tunggu, baby mama dan abah still tak nak menjengah dunia lagi...I don't feel any contractions or any labor sign. Suami ulang alik from KL- KB as he was working. Pity him...I have been taking care by my MIL.

As I have no labor sign, we went to another clinic for check up. As advised by doctor, kalau tak bersalin jugak after 10 days from EDD I have to go the hospital. Oh God, we can't wait anymore..Too excited :-)

As it is on July and my birthday, I pray that our baby will pop up on the same date and we can share the same birth date for the entire of our life ;-)

Memandangkan it is in bulan puasa, I take a chance to eat (eat while i can indulge). Any food that crosssed my mind,  Alhamdulillah, my  husband make sure I got it:-)

It is exactly 10 days on 4th July 2015, our baby doesn't seem wants to pop up yet. We went to clinic and do the fetal scan & ECG for baby. Everything seems OK. Memandangkan its almost 3pm, we decided to go to the hospital on the next morning.

The next morning (5th July 2015), we reached hospital by 8.30am and straight away went to 'wad bersalin'. It's my turn. I have been checked by the nurse including ECG fetal scan and since this is my 1st delivery, nurse gave me a lot of advise. She shared a lot of things....Suddenly !!!!!

All the doctors came to me...where is the patient? Everybody seems to be panic including me..What actually happened to our baby? Oh God, I seem like to CRY!! They said, jantung baby tak cantik ni...very slow...Ya Allah, Ya Rabb...They all kelam kabut checking everything and one of the doctor shout "cepat, panggil ambulans!!" 'Puan tau ke Puan kena bedah?" "Sabar Puan, we try our best untuk baby".

After 1 hour in OT, I have safely delivered a very handsome baby boy.very cute baby boy at 10.38am, 2.65 kg...Terima kasih Tuhan atas kurniaan yang tidak terhingga ini. Syukur pada-Mu.

Then, I was strolled  to ward 11, HRPZ.  During that time, I was quite pening because of bius. I cant think of my baby. What I remembered, I asked my husband the condition of our baby. He said OK.

I got to know the real story.....WHEN

At 3pm, one of Paed came to see me at the ward to get the permission to tambah darah for our baby. She explained everything to me. I'm speechless and what I can do is pray for our baby.

On the 2nd day, 6 July 2015 I got a chance to visit our baby at NICU. Bagai nak gugur jantung tengok keadaan anak. Hanya Allah je tahu perasaan ketika itu. but, naluri seorang ibu mengharapkan keajaiban akan berlaku dan anak akan cepat sihat.  Our baby memang rely on oxygen and too much ubat.  Untuk menjaga perasaan saya yang ketika itu masih lemah, sanak saudara yang dah tahu cerita seems doesn't want to tell me anything. Starting from that, I was crying. I can read them.

On the 3rd day, 7 July 2015 Paed wants to meet my husband. During this time, they tell everything to my husband and our baby dah tiada harapan lagi. He came to the ward with mata merah, after crying. He got no choice, he must tell me the real story. Me and husband redha that our baby willl left his mama and abah. All saudara mara came and visit our son for the last time. I keep cry and cry. We have been waiting him for 1 and half year, 9 months with me....

I have been discharged...

We need to decide the best for our baby. Lastly, on 9 July 2015 at 11.20 am Muhamad Zawawi has left mama and abah forever. Dia pergi mendahului kami ke syurga..Al-fatihah buat sayang mama abah.

Buat sayang mama & abah,

Sayang,
Mama & abah redha dengan pemergian sayang.
9 bulan sayang berada di dalam perut mama
Apa mama makan, sayang makan
Mana mama pergi, mama bawa sayang bersama
Mama rindu tendangan sayang
Tunggu Mama & Abah disana nanti..Insha Allah
Semoga Roh sayang tenang disana

Mama & Abah rindukan Abg Zawawi yang tidak terhingga...

Al-fatihah

My Pregnancy Journey

Alhamdulillah, setelah setahun setengah bergelar suami isteri, syukur Ya Rabb kerana telah disahkan hamil.. Syukur dan gembira tidak terhingga ketika itu kerana dia lah zuriat yang kami nanti-nantikan selama ini...Ya Allah, terima kasih dan alhamdulillah kerana Kau telah mengabulkan permintaan kami..

Pada  awalnya saya sendiri membuat UPT test di rumah memandangkan "tetamu" yang sepatutnya datang tidak juga kunjung tiba...I was really schocked. It was somewhere in September 2014. Dengan sabar, saya menunggu suami balik dari kerja dan terus tunjuk kepadanya result tersebut. Untuk mendapatkan kepastian, kami sepakat untuk ke klinik dan disahkan hamil 8 minggu & EDD on 24 June 2015. We both are happy. Alhamdulillah.

Bermula la kisah kena buat check up & buka buku merah di klinik.

Suami mencadangkan supaya saya pergi buat check up di sebuah poliklinik di Seri Kembangan, walaupun jauh ku turutkan jua :-) Bulan berganti bulan suami menemani saya check up. Alhamdulillah....

Bila perut pun dah makin besar, mula la start kena pakai maternity clothes. So, pergi shopping la sedikit sebanyak, memandangkan ni 1st pregancy mana la ada baju macamtu..

Sewaktu 6 bulan kandungan, kami telah mengetahui jantina baby. Alhamdulillah, its a BOY and Alhamdulillah tiada masalah dengan kandungan. saya juga tidak mengalami alahan yang teruk sepanjang hamil kecuali sewaktu menggosok gigi pada waktu pagi.Its a priceless experience.

Sewaktu kandungan memasuki 8 bulan, kami bersepakat untuk ke klinik swasta berdekatan rumah memandangkan jarak ke Seri Kembangan sangat jauh. Sewaktu check up, kadang-kadang tekanan darah ada yang agak tinggi (even its in border line) bahaya for pregnancy mum, so doktor advise untuk datang buat check up 2 kali semnggu.. Setiap kali check up, setiap kali tu la scan for baby..

Excited mama and abah to be ;-)

My Master Convocation

After all the struggles, up and down...finally i completed my master studies in Business Administration. earlier days when i decided to further studies, I dont think too much..The planning was there but dont not where, when bla...bla...One day, I just walked around at Giant Kota Damansara, I saw UUM opened a booth. I just stopped there and listened to the explanation. Took the form, fill up and submit..Oh My God, what I'm doing? cari pasal anyway...hahaha

After a few days, I received a call from UUM that my application was successful but I need to attend the interview as I don't have any background in business or economy & sewaktu dengannya...Alhamdulillah, I passed the interview and officially can further my master. Until today, I don't have any specific intention and reasons why I decided to further my master where I need to sacrifice A LOT of things especially my lazyness time, my single lady time (that time), my lepak time etc. What I need to do was I need to attend the lecture on the alternate weekend, doing the group assignments, presentation, group discussion etc. Alhamdulillah, I'm gifted a very supportive group members. We help each others in anything we did...Thank God, I have fulfilled papa's dream and I proudly presented this scroll to him ;-)

Day by day, after 2 years I have completed my master studies in "Master in Business Administration' from Universiti Utara Malaysia. All the usaha has been rewarded by Him..Alhamdulillah..

During convocation, only me & husband attended.No family members as papa's condition. So sad :-(

I want to share my memorable time with you guys...

1st Honeymoon

As all of you aware,I have been married during my last semester for my master studies..ha, kelam kabut a bit. Nak final exam lagi 2 weeks, duk kalut buat preparation for wedding. So, we need to postponed our honeymoon after the exam..

But, for the 1st time we only decided to go to Cameron Highlands..sebab masa nak fikir pun tak berapa nak panjang, so mana yang sempat terjah je..Anyway, we love the scenery very much and enjoy our honeymoon lots!!

Here, we go...Pre Zawawi :-)

Our New Life

Alhamdulillah, after 1 year menyulam cinta kami telah selamat diijab kabulkan pada 23 Mac 2013. Tiada kata-kata dapat diungkap untuk menzahirkan rasa syukur kepada-Nya atas kurniaan seorang suami untuk saling melengkapkan hidup ini, untuk membimbing diri ini dalam mencari redha Ilahi dan dalam mencari keberkatan hidup. Alhamdulillah, Mohd Qasim adalah imam yang telah dianugerahkan oleh-Nya kepada ku.

Satu majlis yang sederhana telah disempurnakan di rumahku pada 23 Mac 2013. Alhamdulillah, dengan izin-Nya aku telah telah selamat menjadi tunang kepada Mohd Qasim tepat jam 12.00 tengah hari. Sejuta perasaan telah menyelubungi diriku pada ketika itu.

Kami sekeluarga telah bersepakat untuk mengadakan majlis pertunangan & majlis akad nikah serentak pada hari yang sama memandangkan aku memang hendak merasakan adat bertunang memandangkan ini adalah perkara yang dirasai sekali seumur hidup. Selain itu, keadaan kesihatan papa yang tidak mengizinkan pada ketika itu turut menyebabkan kami mengambil keputusan ini. Seminggu sebelum majlis, papa jatuh dan patah tangan dan telah dimasukkan ke hospital. Hanya Tuhan yang tahu keadaan ketika itu, betapa kelam kabut aku menguruskan persiapan seorang diri memandangkan mama berada di hospital untuk menjaga papa. Alhamdulillah, dengan bantuan saudara mara segala persiapan dapat dijalankan dengan baik dan sempurna.

Selepas waktu zohor pada hari yang sama, berlangsung pula majlis akad nikah. Alhamdulillah, dengan 2 kali lafaz kami sah disatukan menjadi suami isteri. Syukur dan gembira yang tidak terhingga ketika itu. Di dalam kegembiraan itu, aku telah mengingatkan diri aku bahawa aku kini telah menjadi isteri dan tanggungjawab ku kini telah bertambah. Insya Allah akan aku tunaikan & jalankan tanggungjawab ini dengan sebaik mungkin.

Pada 25 Mac 2013, satu majlis resepsi telah diadakan di rumahku. Alhamdulillah, dengan kehadiran saudara mara dan tetamu, majlis telah berlangsung dengan baik dan sempurna.

Pada 26 Mac 2013, majlis menyambut menantu pula. Alhamdulillah, juga berlangsung dengan baik.

Doa aku, semoga hubungan ini sentiasa di dalam redha Ilahi dan bahagia berkekalan hingga ke Jannah di samping anak-anak yang soleh dan solehah. Insha Allah, Amin Ya Rabb...

Terima kasih untuk semua yang terlibat, terutama keluarga kedua-dua belah pihak, saudara mara, katering, bridal, mak andam, photographer dan semua lah....heheh

Bermula la fasa kehidupan kami dan doakan kebahagiaan kami hingga ke Jannah.