My Delivery Journey

As its approching EDD, we have decided on 17 June sebab dah  buat decision nak bersalin kat HRPZ.

Tunggu punya tunggu, baby mama dan abah still tak nak menjengah dunia lagi...I don't feel any contractions or any labor sign. Suami ulang alik from KL- KB as he was working. Pity him...I have been taking care by my MIL.

As I have no labor sign, we went to another clinic for check up. As advised by doctor, kalau tak bersalin jugak after 10 days from EDD I have to go the hospital. Oh God, we can't wait anymore..Too excited :-)

As it is on July and my birthday, I pray that our baby will pop up on the same date and we can share the same birth date for the entire of our life ;-)

Memandangkan it is in bulan puasa, I take a chance to eat (eat while i can indulge). Any food that crosssed my mind,  Alhamdulillah, my  husband make sure I got it:-)

It is exactly 10 days on 4th July 2015, our baby doesn't seem wants to pop up yet. We went to clinic and do the fetal scan & ECG for baby. Everything seems OK. Memandangkan its almost 3pm, we decided to go to the hospital on the next morning.

The next morning (5th July 2015), we reached hospital by 8.30am and straight away went to 'wad bersalin'. It's my turn. I have been checked by the nurse including ECG fetal scan and since this is my 1st delivery, nurse gave me a lot of advise. She shared a lot of things....Suddenly !!!!!

All the doctors came to me...where is the patient? Everybody seems to be panic including me..What actually happened to our baby? Oh God, I seem like to CRY!! They said, jantung baby tak cantik ni...very slow...Ya Allah, Ya Rabb...They all kelam kabut checking everything and one of the doctor shout "cepat, panggil ambulans!!" 'Puan tau ke Puan kena bedah?" "Sabar Puan, we try our best untuk baby".

After 1 hour in OT, I have safely delivered a very handsome baby boy.very cute baby boy at 10.38am, 2.65 kg...Terima kasih Tuhan atas kurniaan yang tidak terhingga ini. Syukur pada-Mu.

Then, I was strolled  to ward 11, HRPZ.  During that time, I was quite pening because of bius. I cant think of my baby. What I remembered, I asked my husband the condition of our baby. He said OK.

I got to know the real story.....WHEN

At 3pm, one of Paed came to see me at the ward to get the permission to tambah darah for our baby. She explained everything to me. I'm speechless and what I can do is pray for our baby.

On the 2nd day, 6 July 2015 I got a chance to visit our baby at NICU. Bagai nak gugur jantung tengok keadaan anak. Hanya Allah je tahu perasaan ketika itu. but, naluri seorang ibu mengharapkan keajaiban akan berlaku dan anak akan cepat sihat.  Our baby memang rely on oxygen and too much ubat.  Untuk menjaga perasaan saya yang ketika itu masih lemah, sanak saudara yang dah tahu cerita seems doesn't want to tell me anything. Starting from that, I was crying. I can read them.

On the 3rd day, 7 July 2015 Paed wants to meet my husband. During this time, they tell everything to my husband and our baby dah tiada harapan lagi. He came to the ward with mata merah, after crying. He got no choice, he must tell me the real story. Me and husband redha that our baby willl left his mama and abah. All saudara mara came and visit our son for the last time. I keep cry and cry. We have been waiting him for 1 and half year, 9 months with me....

I have been discharged...

We need to decide the best for our baby. Lastly, on 9 July 2015 at 11.20 am Muhamad Zawawi has left mama and abah forever. Dia pergi mendahului kami ke syurga..Al-fatihah buat sayang mama abah.

Buat sayang mama & abah,

Sayang,
Mama & abah redha dengan pemergian sayang.
9 bulan sayang berada di dalam perut mama
Apa mama makan, sayang makan
Mana mama pergi, mama bawa sayang bersama
Mama rindu tendangan sayang
Tunggu Mama & Abah disana nanti..Insha Allah
Semoga Roh sayang tenang disana

Mama & Abah rindukan Abg Zawawi yang tidak terhingga...

Al-fatihah